The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal June 5th, 2021 Just came up with the idea for my 3rd album concept. I am able to and will do this! I am giving myself back my full worth! I am worthy of big shows like this! I am divine! I deserve to host and play shows like this! * I don't care what J has to say anymore about what I do. Really. I do what I do, that's it. There's a lot of work happening in regards to my relationships with my parents. Very i

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal June 1st, 2021 I am a human person, and honestly, that's enough. I am. I is. I is alive, I is here, I is now, I is me. I don't need that thing in my head saying what society is already saying. What is society anyway? Do I care? I mean, society contains big enough of the problem to be relevant, but that doesn't mean anyone should listen. Ek Ong Kar Sat Guru Prasad. I just don't care about what anyone thinks

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal May 27th, 2021 I am definitely feeling more the embodiment of all that is. Today, I really felt the duality not being there anymore, or like, it was there but no No. Not. So, it's like the voice that judges was weaker. I can hear the voice, but the gukta quickly puts itself in, and it's like no, things don't need to be that bad. I was confused, I was confused. And that's part of life. And that's it. No need

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal May 24th, 2021 - morning Just finished my sadhana. The mantra is really about having in become my very best friend. When I "look" down at my hands, I picture the words, and feel myself into the space where it's the mantra, my voice and me, and feel it as joy, infinite joy. Today I chanted like une comptine, at some point, for a long time, and it brought me to that place of the simple joy children have of si

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal May 20th, 2021 We're all working on our value and on our worth as we settle ourselves in the Aquarian age. The Piscean age valued the selected few. The Aquarian age values all. We are all worthy of living a joyful life of celebration, comfort and ease, freedom and peace. We all deserve love. Love is our birthright. Respect is our birthright. No one is worthier than another. We are all worthy. This is very i

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal May 17th, 2021 Forgiveness. Can I forgive? Est-ce que je peux pardonner? Because compassion isn't forgiveness. You can understand why people do what they do and accept that things are what they are, but you're not necessarily forgiving it either. Maybe, for my own sake, I should just forgive. I definitely should forgive myself anyway. * The cakras are so real. The top of my head is sparkling all the time, a

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal May 10th, 2021 Today, I realized how I have 0 tolerance for pop music. My body and vibe felt completely off until we put on some Rammstein in the car. The second we did that, my body started sparkling. And even when that was all over and we were listening to Kittie, and then Deftones, and even the rock radio -there's an authenticity, a truth, to the essence of rock in all its forms where I feel complete tru

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal May 3rd, 2021 What if I always allowed myself to truly be everything I am, all the time? Siva - I am Everything - embracing everything I am, always, and be that in full! Nobody wants to see me tamed and subdued and shamed, really. Everybody, starting with me, wants to see me rise, full and real, utmostly manifested as the grandiose creature goddess that I am! Be free!! People put shame on anything that isn'

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal May 2nd, 2021 I am changed. I am changing. I am following a blind way. No, it is not blind. I am following a way, and it feels like it's the best, greatest way to take, and I know everything's gonna be okay -so great, in fact. Yes, everything about my life and me is about to become the greatest, most wonderful, amazing, miraculous, lovely, beautiful, marvelous journey, life, love and experience, and all I h

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal journal April 28th, 2021 It must be recorded that last night, at some point, I felt Ganesh completely stomping down my ego -and it was also like a knife was being pulled out. And I started saying I don't care what happens, I don't care what happens It made me feel so free, so clear. Clear, true, positive. I was freedom. And now, as I write this, I feel negativity lifting, being less sticky to my body. I completely

The following words are a direct transcription from my personal journal. April 23rd, 2021 Suddenly, I feel a shift. I told myself "Everything I do -my writing, my music, me blogging, my yoga rituals, my reiki & ayurveda practices: all of that, everything I do, gives me/brings me MONEY! All the money I need, all the time, forever. Enough to live the lifestyle I wanna live. Enough money to do and be anything I want. And then it shifted. Suddenly, this didn't feel separate anymo

The following words are a direct transcription of my personal journal. April 8th, 2021 I find it hard to accept that people don't want to evolve. It makes me very sad that people don't want to evolve. I don't understand. I mean, I understand that they don't wanna make that choice and that makes me sad. Why are you choosing ignorance? Why are you choosing fear. It is true that I am this close to destroying everything. I could if I would. *Experts of the Self* I really could de

The following words are a direct transcription of my personal journal. April 2nd, 2021 Body has trauma of not feeling safe to truly surrender guard and be free to have fun, enjoy myself. It's totally ok to be who I am, love, enjoy and have fun with whatever I love, whether it be a band, music, clothes, a videogame, ... Wow, everything is replacing itself inside me, something major just lifted, I feel like I shed a giant layer of fear-shield made from my fears and pain, keepin

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal Kundalini Residency journal. March 14th, 2021 I see it. I saw it. I saw the snakes. The snake and the snake and the 8 heads of the snake, and now everything feels real and makes sense and is perfectly aligned. I'm gonna own my own venue. Ma propre salle de spectacles. Je vais avoir ma propre salle de spectacles avec EF, mon chum. On va avoir notre projet ensemble, parce qu'on n'aura pas d'enfants. On va avoir une s

The following words are directly transcribed from my personal Kundalini Residency journal. March 5th, 6th and 7th, 2021 - Reflections from our first weekend Intention: May I be fully open and receptive so as to assimilate and understand properly what kundalini yoga is. I feel like I'm this new teacher in a circle of super experienced teachers and it makes me feel like a child. Like everyone around me is super savvy and not me and that my personal wisdom and experience and ins

The number One thing to be said about my first yoga teacher training is that I was working in a bar at the time. The trainings were held as intensive weekends, from Friday evenings to Sunday afternoons. So when you add that to a bar job, where the only times you're actually making money is on Friday and Saturday nights, it makes for a rather impossible schedule to work out, right? It was insane. I'd get ready to go to work before the Friday evening class, attend it, then go a

This weekend, I started a Kundalini yoga residency. I will be trained to teach it, yes, but for now, I'm going to keep the experience for myself. I've been wanting to learn about and experience kundalini yoga since 2017, so I'm quite stoked for this journey. On Friday night, to start of the training, my mentor, guide, friend Kimiko Tao Fujimoto (www.schoolofritual.com) had us pull a card for ourselves to receive the clarity we needed to start us off. Of course, I got the Deat